So depressed

So I am 26 and I have to stop TTC my second child do to having a hernia bulging disk in my back and could be worse possible ms will be having more MRI done in the next week and weeks after .... I lost my mother when I was seven months pregnant with my daughter and all I want is her to talk to for I am scared my body might be shutting down slowly and I I'll not be able to be the mom I am today :'( .... Do not know who to reach out to and no answers yet .... I want to grow old and watch my child/ grandchildren grow up .... Beyond depressed .... Lord help me