I just need to vent a little bit, im sitting in my bed crying my eyes out right now. Nothing seem be going right, idk what else to do. I dream of being a mother, I wish so badly that day could come I would be the happiest lady on earth. But it seems like that will never happen for me its so heartbreaking. Why do all these other ungrateful people get to have kids? Why? I try talking to my fiancee about my feelings but I feel like he doesnt understand fully cause he has his own son. Yes I love his son but he has his own deadbeat mother and no matter how much I love him or do for him he will always have her. Why cant I just have my own baby to love and call me mommy and cry for me, why cant I? :(