Just venting

This doctor that I just started seeing for 2years is a good doctor, but he's loud :-/. Both of my pervious pregnancies were rough emotionally and I just want to be at peace. The crazy thing is he birth me many years ago when my mom had me lol my mom recommended him. Ima see tomorrow to confirm, but I really don't want him as my birthing doctor. Idk if I'm just being moody or what. He was my aunts and my grandmother ob/gyn, but they left him for whatever reasons. My partners my mom said I should keep him but I feel I'm way to old to be influence about my decision.