I'm very nervous about having this baby, a week ago I was feeling okay about it but now I'm just scared. All the money and appointments and Medicaid, wic, food stamps, it's a lot to do, a lot to apply for. Especially at only 19. I'm not financially stable, but I do have a job I just got a call for an interview for anther job so I might have 2, it's going to be a lot of time and work and exhaustion. Then when the baby is born im nervous my partner and I will fight a lot with all the stress. Being up all night, the exhaustion. I don't want to split up, i want our baby to be happy and healthy, i kinda wish it just wouldn't have happened now, I wish it would have happened when I am actually stable and ready, but sometimes things just happen and you're not ready for all this but everything happens for a reason right? This is the craziest thing that will probably ever happen in my life, just knowing that I'm growing a baby inside of me and I'll be responsible for him, it's a crazy thing to think about