It's 12:28am and I'm laying in bed crying my eyes. I've never wanted something this bad. I know that's only been 4 months since actively trying. I hate getting on social media right now, it seems like every time I get on there someone else I know is pregnant and then I become secretly jealous or beyond anger with myself. My boyfriend is so laid back its annoying his "when it happens it happens" attitude irritates the hell out of me. I fell like I have no one to talk too. All my single friends are like what are you in a rush for take your time enjoy your life and all my married or friends with children are like don't rush it take your time. I'm so irritated with the whole process right now I could seriously bitch slap mother nature right now! I don't know what to do right now.