Month 7 TTC

And yet another BFN 14DPO. ? I don't know how much more of this I can handle. I'm so jealous (not in a malicious way though) of everyone getting their rainbow baby's and BFPs. When will it be me?... Sigh. 
​To add to it I would have been due in a few days if I hadn't lost my baby earlier this year. I'm an emotional wreck.  I really want to give up trying.