Really "rant"

I am 18 now and I been in high school swimming and I got my senior award it was amazing my dad was unable to go (sick) my mom went with my my brother was made to go with since it is the last awards banquet for me. But my parents reactions where anything but making me happy during it I was so happy and feeling amazing but I got home my mom said it was pretty cool and my dad said ya and looked the other way its like seriously giving up my summers to train and giving my all each fall for 6 years get a ya. I got my hopes up that I would at least get a good job and a side hug by at least one of them but no I didn't I was crying non stop my dad didn't even write on my card for my 18 birthday and didn't talk with me or my boyfriends family that where there makes me seriously wonder what will he do when I graduate look at me and just say ya and go on like nothing happened what will go on when I get married in the future or have kids seriously I guess I just can do enough to please them really thinking of moving out I have a lot of people who say I should just do it n with that I am really thinking it is time too because swimming really meant a lot to me