Late but afraid to test or think about it. HELP

Mrs. • Wife and Mother
So my current situation. I ovulated BD and 4 days later spotted brown for a few days. And now im late, 2 weeks. I don't want to obsess over it , which i kinda am, . Ive been dealing with loss for years. High hopes them to either the test is negative, or miscarriage. I can't. Help