Trying to keep a smile...

My best friend called me while I was driving to work to tell me she is pregnant.  I want to be happy for her but all I feel is anger and hurt because she wasn't even trying ?. I feel like a horrible person for admitting that but it's hard not feel that way when all I've been doing is trying to get that BFP!  To top it off hubby and I have been fighting because he's not really helping is try here just always saying he's too tired....I feel so sad and hopeless like this BFP is just never gonna happen for me.  I'm so depressed and anxious that I just want to give up and go back on all my meds I had to stop to start TTC....I'm tired of feeling like I'm putting my body at risk for a relapse of my Multiple Sclerosis for nothing...