Already freaking out about my child to be

I have always suffered from anxiety and battled depression off a few years ago. I'm only 8+1 but I've had a feeling that it's a girl, probably because that scares me more than anything. Being a survivor of every type of child abuse I think of how susceptible girls are and I start to worry. Will I accuse everyone of ill will toward her? Will I be obnoxiously overprotective? Can I save her from the pain and suffering? Will she trust me to tell me everything? It's driving me crazy even though I know there's nothing I can do about it atm. ?