Need advice!

I had a MC at 6 wks in September, waited a month before TTC again. Well my period is due 11/24 and I def feel pregnant again. I tried to wait to POAS but gave in. Took a test and got a BFN. Now I'm freaking out b/c I don't know what to think. I know it's still early but I'm already afraid of a MC again. Its like I'm devastated to not be pregnant but if I am I'm terrified of another MC. How do I stay sane through this??