Dealing with loss

This is what I know. Today is post surgery day 5. So far I know that I had one of the worst cases of endometriosis that my dr has ever seen. A simple outpatient laparoscopic surgery turned into the dr cutting me open & removing my tubes. I can no longer get pregnant naturally. She also informed me that my uterus is "almost abnormally small."  My follow-up appointment is on Dec. 9th. We will discuss our options & wether it's even safe for me to carry a child.  I am in pain that is making me dizzy, but I feel like I deserve it. The pain pills make me nauseated, which makes the pain worse. So, I'm not taking the pain pills.  That is what I know. 

This is what I don't know. Will IVF even be an option at this point? WilI be able to carry a child? Will we be able to afford it? Will Philip resent me for the $ &/or loss of being able to get pregnant? Will the pain emotionally or physically ever fully go away?  Will we survive this as a couple?