Tww is getting to me.

Im suppose to start AF on 12/18 and every test is still coming up a bfn. I know ALOT of ppl get bfns a while even after they missed period but it's seriously staring to get to me! I'm so stressed out and anxious over it. We've been trying for 16 months and I've never gotten this in my head over it. It's our 1st cycle with clomid though, so there's the game changer. How do you cope with all the pent up anxt? I just want it so soooo bad : /