Parenthood

I just had my first child this past October. I never thought I'd have children anytime soon or even with who I had him with. It's hard for me to wrap my head around it. I mean no doubt that I love my son but it's hard for me to get that motherly attachment. I hope that I can be a good mother because his father isn't going to do anything worthwhile. He won't even get a job. IDK what is parenthood like to everyone else?