So apparently I did miscarry

Kimberly • Mom since 2011. Preemie mom since 2015. Married. I love my lil family
Fuck doctors. 
Fuck my body. 
I was told I was miscarrying 2 weeks ago. 
Then my hormone level increased more and more. 
Then I started bleeding again. 
Now the hospital is pretty sure I did and am miscarrying. 
They don't know why my levels increased but they now know I miscarried. 
I just announced my pregnancy to my fiance's family. Now I have to call everyone to say I'm not pregnant. 
What a fucked up, cruel joke. 
I'll be open about this, I had 3 abortions between my son and now. I WASNT ready to be a mom. So they think those fucked me up. 
So, it is what it is. 
Either way I'm pretty mad right now. Not at anyone or anything. Just mad.