First period after miscarriage

Holly • I've had three pregnancy losses: 2 miscarriages and an ectopic. I had a baby in 2017 who is now a spunky 3 year old. We are expecting another bundle in October 2021.
I had my miscarriage Dec. 2 at 5 weeks and 3 days. I went to the dr for a blood test and had a drop in HGC which the dr called a missed miscarriage. We've been trying for over 2 years, and we were so ecstatic. I just got my period today, the first since my period. I thought I was ok, but I'm right back depressed and crying. I feel like I haven't had closure. What have you done to find closure or to make the pain better?