Ttc!!!!

Hello i am new to this i have been trying to conceive for three years in may will be four years.... So far i am late 31 days i just took a hpt today when i got home and of course it was negative :( and back in 2011 feb I found out i was pregnant and in the same month on the 28th mu mother wanted me to get an abortion :( to finish school and now i feel as thought its that abortion that messed me up idk i have a new patient appt infeb but until then idk what to think???