Seems I have no problem getting pregnant just staying pregnant. I had a mmc in October and another in January. Everyone around me is not only pregnant but also due around the same times I was... My cousin just admitted that she is pregnant with her third. She told me that she feels conflicted because her youngest is only 9 months now. I wanted to mush her upside her head. Like what did you think was going to happen when you had unprotected sex? What were you doing to prevent it if you weren't ready? Long story short it irks me that some people get pregnant/ have babies "all willy nilly" and I am struggling to see the light and remain hopeful.  I'm trying not to covet or begrudge because I feel like what's for me is for me and other people blessings should be a reminder but... It's not going that well 😔