Wanted to have a baby??👪💏

When I say this I really wanted a baby past tense now because I change my mind like frequently. Mostly because I have a boyfriend dearly loved but, since I moved in with him he's become controlling so much it's affected his anger there's times where I can forgive him and move on but I get stressed easily...so much that  maybe I blame him for things and that's where the anger begins deep down hope you understand and give me advice on what to do? And I still would love and adore a baby he's great with kids!👶