Pretty sure im out

Why do I insist in putting myself through this every month ?

Every month there's a different symptom I'm googling. Every month, im peeing in sticks, fighting sadness, fighting anger when someone asks "when are we getting pregnant? " or the classic "hey! My so and I have been trying for two days and now we're pregnant! "

Give me a break.

What the hell am I doing wrong?

Why cant i have a child ?

Why me?