SO SAD AND HATING MYSELF...

Iv been married nearly a year and been actively trying for a baby since October. My best friend who got married 25th January 2015 messaged me this morning telling me she is pregnant. I cried buckets I was so hurt and upset. Not because U don't want her to have a healthy happy baby but because I want one too. I feel so bad but Evrything I think about her or picture the next 9months of her pregnacy I feel sick to the stomach. We share every thing and are so very close. I'm just dreading every minute of it. I feel so  heart broken. I know God is testing me and I feel terrible for being impatient and ungrateful. All day my friends been on my mind and im happy for her but a small part is so very jealous. I feel like crying until I can cry no more. Can anyone help me on how to I can get over this horrible feeling? 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢