Pregnant- healing from loss status pain

Shauna • Started in RI. Now we are happy and healthy in FL
I lost my baby at 8 weeks on feb 20th. It would have been due October 4th.. I posted before about how I can't get myself to change the settings on this app or even delete it. I still come on one or more times a day and check thigs out. See what my babies growth would be like today... Well someone told me there is a "healing from loss" status on this app also. I went to see and still just couldn't select it. I find myself crying everytime I open the app but feel as if I can't stop myself from opening it. Like my body is telling me I need to cry even when my brain isn't saying it in those words. 
If anyone knows the feeling or can help in anyway please give me some helpful advise or input.