Is it bad that I've secretly been wanting to have a baby of my own and I'm only 20? I've always wanted to have a child to be the Mother that my Mother never was. I'm longing to give that love and affection. I don't think I'd actually end up conceiving one on purpose for now at least, but just needed to get this off my chest and see opinions. Feel so much better now. 😥  I keep having dreams about being pregnant with my boyfriend and it's so frustrating because they seem so real.