Deeper and deeper into the pit of depression

It really hurts me how low my dad can make me feel to even think about suicide and to slit my wrists, cause never in a million years would I want to do something like that. The pain from words cutting right to the soul. I tried committing suicide when I was younger and never again. No matter the pain I will never travel that road again but it kills me that the thoughts are there. He's pushing me deeper into the pit of depression.