So sad

2 weeks after my miscarriage my bff told me she was gonna start trying to get pregnant. I don't know why but it mad me so mad. She has never wanted kids before. She told me today (it's been 2 months) that she took a pregnancy test and it was positive. I'm so devastated. I have all these mixed feelings. I wish I could be happy for her but I can't help the way I feel. I want it to be. False positve so bad.  Why do I feel this way.  I wish I could be the person I would be if the circumstances were different. I confided in my other friend and she told me don't worry when the time is right it will happen for u ! But it did happen!! I just lost my baby and I'm so devastated. I don't know why people can't realize that