Anger at the OB

Feeling angry and frustrated. I never got to have my first appointment with my nurse midwife, because I miscarried several days earlier. On that day, they referred me to an OB who was on call. Since the miscarriage, we've been emailing, mostly about postpartum bloodwork. She strongly recommends that we wait two cycles before trying again, and said that I might risk another miscarriage if I try sooner. For some reason, this made me very angry. I don't know whether to believe her. I don't know if she wants me to wait longer for emotional reasons, so I might be a "less difficult" patient the second time around (because I would have grieved longer?) I guess I'm skeptical of doctors and the reasons why they make these calls. Just feel angry and helpless. Of course, if I disregard her advice and miscarry again, I will blame myself. I just wanted to make that call re: how soon to TTC. 😔