Waiting...

Waiting for the phone call today that will HOPEFULLY have some answers as to what's going on in my body. I hate not knowing what's happening in my own body. It makes me stress. I have NO hope there's a positive outcome. I'm pretty positive my bleeding is my period. But hopefully I'll learn if it is leftover hcg from the mc or if it was a chemical pregnancy... Either one will be hard to hear but hopefully it will bring some closure so I can start to get excited about trying again. My husband and I had a big talk yesterday. I think he never really tells me how hard ttc is on him emotionally because he always wants to be strong for me. But yeaterday I got to finally see his stress and worry. I think it's so hard for us to all go through because growing up they make it sound like you have sex once and you get pregnant which is just NOT the case! The fact that even if you time everything perfect and are 100% healthy there is still only a 33% chance every month is crazy!!! I'm definitely starting to feel a little better and I'm going to try to keep myself happy if only to be fair to my husband. The last few days were so hard on him. Trying to keep me happy when I was so depressed. I know it stresses him out and I felt so guilty for that. But he is an amazing and supportive man. Hopefully after we get some answers we can both start to de-stress and get ready to try again...