My bloodwork came back today. The results were "boarder line" that or baby girl would have Down Syndre, but my Genetic's Councelor said that with the thicker NT that there is a high probability. I'm lucky that I have a lot of friends and former co workers who have connections to great resources. I still love my baby girl with all my heart, but now super scared that I won't be cut out for all of this.  We have to decide if we're going to go through with the amniocentesis for a more definitive answer or just let things happen as they will.