Am I getting my hopes up?

I have been TTC for over a year. When have stopped for a bit because we hit some financial trouble. We have/are using the pull out method because we r dealing w a custody battle for his, fixing to be, 2 year old son. We ddnt want to add more stress to tht. But I still cnt help but hope I'm pregnant. I was supposed to start April 28th. I jus want to be a mom so bad. I love being a step mom, dnt get me wrong, I love my stepson.....but I will never truly be mom to him. Maybe I'm getting my hopes up, but I sure hope AF does show up 😩😒😢