Very emotional

Just found out I have D.O.R. last week and have been very emotional. Last night I cried as my husband was sleeping. I woke up to having a dream I had a baby girl. She was a newborn and she was in her car seat in the hospital as we were getting ready to leave. I was smelling her and kissing her hands as she was making all her baby noises. I was in aww and so on love and I just kept saying I can't believe I made you, you're mine. Anyway I am so scared, sad, hopeful with the treatment plan but just want to shut all the curtains and not come out. Just needed to vent. 😢 I need to muster up the strength to go out today I have a day concert to go to ughhh maybe it will cheer me up.