Contradicting myself.

I love women and wish i could just be with who ever i want.. But i know my bf really loves me and weve been through hell and back, and im not ready to call it quites. Im not a quitter... (Horrible at spelling btw)...but he gets mad because i dont like the idea if threesomes anymore because ive passed that stage, and i LOVE him so much that i dont want him to "want" another women.. Like WHY does he want a threesome so badly? Just because i like girls? Uhh, i love them and i dont want tk share them with you or anyone. Weve had one threesome with a friend of.mine who is now.married, and he just expects more from me just because i 'love women'. He puts in quotation because he thinks i just talk crap.. So i know i contradict myself..but i just can't help it.. I dont wanna share either or with eachother.. Makes sence?

My other situation is WEIRD. I PERSONALLY LOVE PORN. It turns me on. But, i ABSOLUTELY H A T E it when i know/see my man is watching it. I get so livid.. Im unfair, because how can I be allowed to watch and enjoy it, but i get Hulk Jealous when i catch him doing it. Can anyone relate?