I need to vent...

I lost my mom to lung cancer when I was 21. I turn 30 this year. All 3 of my siblings are married and have kids. I have a horrible dating history... guys I think I need to fix, guys that try to change me, verbally abusive guys, bad boys with 4 kids and 2 baby mommas (maybe a 5th/3rd, he's not sure!)... I sure know how to pick 'em. I finally find a guy that is amazing. He treats me like a queen. My family loves him. He's great with all my nieces and nephews. He loves me..... bit I just don't have any feelings for him. After 10 months of dating, praying I'll development feelings, I finally decide it's just not happening right now and it's not fair to either of us to keep going. So I broke it off. I've decided to go to a psychologist and work through any trust issues or anything that may have resulted from all the bad decisions I've made in my dating life. When I tell my dad this, he asks if I know what love is. Do I know what it is supposed to feel like? He doesn't want me to have this fairytale fantasy expectation so that I don't pass up a great relationship in search of something unrealistic. Seriously? I say I just broke up with my boyfriend and you're trying to talk me into believing he's as good as it gets for me and I should just go with it even if the feelings aren't there? Ugh! I miss my mom.