First off I am sorry for the loss of you babies. There are no other words.

Son thoughts I need to get out but have no where else to go:

I had my 1st bfp on April 9, began spotting one week later, saw the doctor for blood tests the following week to find dropping hcg levels and finally had the miscarriage on April 28-May 1 naturally. I would have been due 12-13-15.

I've had support from friends who went through similar experiences initially. My husband has also been supportive, but I know he doesn't feel the loss as deeply as I do having experienced the pregnancy (not to mention the 3 months of ovulation traking to get there). Now when I talk to my friends, I feel like their attitude is I should be over it. I saw some pregnancy announcements fb,and all I can think is we should be announcing our pregnancy. I feel like I'm okay almost all of the time, but then once in a while I'm struck with such awareness and sadness. 

I am trying to focus on the positives, my body did what it was supposed to do if something was wrong, we can get pregnant blah blah blah. But sonetimes it just sucks. I also hate the shaming that goes in to miscarriage, like we aren't supposed to talk about it. 

Thanks for hearing my rant out. Prayers thoughts and best wishes to those of you healing!