Discouraged...opinions

Im 11dpo af is due 6/3-6/6 got bfn and neg opk so i highly doubt im preggo. I though i might have been had a bunch of symptoms the past 3 days or so but i just have that feeling you know. Been trying for #2 since January. Had my 8th miscarriage in april and im just trying really hard not to lose hope and pray that i can have one more child. I dont really have anyone to talk to. And i just feel... So many emotions I'm not sure what to think