Alone 😿

My child's father seems to hate my soul since I decided to keep our baby.  He pressured me from the day we found out I was pregnant until I was 3mths to get an abortion.  But I just couldn't gather the courage to do it.  I try everyday to talk to him & work things out.  He says things are done with us.  I get a little jealous when I come on here or watch YouTube vlogs & see the pregnant women with their spouses & they seem happy to be expecting.  I hate having to go to doctors appts alone, buy things alone, & make all the decision alone.  This is our first child, I have no idea what I'm doing.  I have support from others but his support is what I wanted & needed the most.  I just want to have my family together; me, him, & the baby.  Maybe my head is just stuck in a fantasy.