Rant about my man

I completely feel like I'm not good enough. My s/o and I have been together for 3 years.. he proposed to me on my birthday, in my kitchen, with just us. I was a complete mess, as was the house because we just had a house fire. Buuut he proposed to me with my EX's ring that my ex proposed to me with. (yes he knew it was the same ring, and I thought I actually lost it)

So mean while, I've tired over and over to talk wedding talk with him and he don't. He has absolutely no say in planning.

I literally am getting digested by this act. I also picked out a date to get married and told everyone, started making plans and actress stuff in stone, but because his sister decided to get married the same weekend, he was ok with cancelling ours because his family told us to move our date. (everyth

ing is about his sister, she's the only girl)

I don't want to wear the ring. Ive told him to get me a different one, idc what it looks like or how much it cost. I don't want to speak of a wedding, or even think of getting married. I've had it. I don't think he will ever understand how I feel. Or maybe he's just not serious. We also have a house and 2 children together.