In need of positivity..

Bree
AF should be here today or tomorrow.. I usually have 28-30 day cycles and today will be day 30. I've tested the past couple days and all BFNs 😔 so I'm assuming this isn't my month yet again. Feeling super down today, just wish AF would show and go so I can get on with month 9 of TTC. Anyone in my sad boat?