Things just keep getting harder.

Its been 4 days since my miscarriage started and i am reminded of it everytime I go to the bathroom. My heart breaks everytime. SO its having just as hard of a time grieving as I am. He feels its his fault some how even tho there is no way that it could be. Its hard watching my Aunt get further and further in her pregnancy and be able to enjoy her pregnancy even with the PCOS which we both have. I feel every day that it is my fault. I feel like if I didn't have the PCOS that maybe I could have a full pregnancy. Its so hard to go to just the store because the minute I see a baby/newborn i want to break down because I feel/know that might never be me.