I feel punished...

I just started cramping and bleeding after my positive test on Saturday! I was so happy! We were getting ideas on nursery colors for our new house! Why!?! This is my second miscarriage this year after my miscarriage in February-March, third total and so early there is nothing they can do to find out why! I'm being punished and I don't know why!?! I feel so broken and so angry.... I just want to lay in bed in the dark and cry.... My cramps are so hateful today!...