Heartbroken.. Got turned down for egg share & IVF

Jade
Cut a long story short, was going to go ahead with IVF & egg sharing after talking things through with my consultant. 
Upon completing a genetics form, I got turned down on the basis of having Bipolar. 
I'm gutted :( I know there are other ways around it, but this was my best hope. I can't believe it when Bipolar isn't genetic... The only reason why children get it from their parents apparently is through learnt behaviour, or so two of my psychiatrists have said. I can completely understand them not wanting to take a risk, but to be told I may not even be able to go ahead with my own eggs and not sharing them because of my Bipolar is a bigger smack in the face. 
Anyone had anything similar? I know it's a huge long shot but I need to hear from other ladies, even if you've got turned down for fertility treatment on another basis and how you worked through it. I feel like my dreams have ended. And what's worse, I was at work when I got the email and I burst into tears in front of my team - who know nothing about it, so explaining myself was hard!