Confused..
Hey.. So I'm gonna kinda vent here mainly because I'm just so lost. I'll do the background story first then go to the one that's happening right now.
My first boyfriend lasted 1 year and a month and he cheated, raped, and lied to me and I was head over heels for him. I tell a lot of people that I was with him to get back at my parents but I really liked how he was so nice to me at first- then he turned into an asshole and I was terrified to break up with him.
I moved on pretty fast. My best guy friend was going through a break up and we hooked up and talked for 3 months. Then I realized thy all he wanted was sex so I stopped that. But I was falling for him.
I started talking to my now-boyfriend within those three months I was with my best guy friend. He is desperately in love with me, he treats me like a princess, and I know he loves me for me. The only thing is: I don't know if I love him the way he loves me.
Maybe it's because I moved on so fast from my first relationship and now I'm with him. Don't get this the wrong way, I do love him. I love him a lot but I don't know if it's the way he loves me. Sometimes I miss being single, I want to 'go wild' at least once and 'live a little' but I know that I would miss my Mitri terribly. I love him so much.
I know I'm confusing, maybe it's just hormones. But how do I love someone that loves me to death the same way if I am too scared and I don't know how?
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