I'm mad and irritated... Confessions

My mom told me I'm a crappy mom because I spank my daughter sometimes. And then this weekend my husband is going on a float trip without me. Guys trip. But I don't want him to go. I have no friends where I live I moved here from Arizona.so seeing him going to do fun stuff I'm jealous. I want to move back but he doesn't want to move at all. And I know what happens on float trips. From hearing people talk about it. Just not feeling happy. Haven't been happy in awhile.