Molested

I was molested as a child until my early teens.. I tell people who I am close to I don't remember who molested me.. buts that's a lie it's all I remember. I was molested by someone I have to see almost everyday my step father... I never told any family members only a few close friends and my husband. I can't remember any good times but the abuse plays over an over like a bad dream. I am scared to start a family.... I hate my self. I have body image issues. . I feel disgusting. I am now 21 trying to move on with life but I am so lost.. an confused. ..... is there anyone who knows what I am going through? That can help me cope.