I have battled anarexia and bulimia since I was 14. On and off of course but it has always been a constant and rocky battle. I'm now 24, and after having my first son in 2012, I loved the weight I was shedding so quickly from the light clean eating and breastfeeding. I dropped down to 102-105 lbs. I hadn't been that small since high school, and now being that small I have the constant fear of gaining weight back on. I was pregnant in October of 2014 and I miscarried in November. I had taken prenatals and such but I did purge up some of my meals those few weeks of first trimester but also cause I was nauseous from the pregnancy, I thought it would be ok, but honestly bulimia is a disease. A nasty evil one at that, it tricks my mind to believe that it's alright to throw up and that my body naturally needs to do it, because my stomach can't stand the feeling of being full. It's only gotten worse over these last 3 years and I'm terrified that having my eating disorder has allowed me to have a failed pregnancy. I'm pregnant again at 7 weeks, and I promised myself to be as healthy as possible. But I just threw up after my dinner tonight, but this time wasn't on purpose, I was genuinely sick. It's been about 3 times or so I've gotten sick after eating a meal. I'm afraid even these few times I'll miscarry again. Anyone have any advice or input? Do you think being bulimic all these years makes it hard to carry a successful pregnancy? I'm currently 120-124 lbs. I was 105 last October. So maybe the extra weight one will help this pregnancy, idk.