Sadness

Sadness...it happens to everyone right? I feel like I've stepped into this rather large circle of sadness. It's been going on for days...nay months.

My husband says I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, while that may be true...I just can''t stop the tears. It comes at any point of the day. My problem is infertility. My bigger problem, everyone and I do mean everyone is pregnant or about ready to give birth and here I am...no baby, not pregnant and crying and being sad. I try my heart out to be joyful and happy and excited for them all. Babies are blessings and special...but why not me? Why can't I be the one to have that most precious thing happen to me. It hurts and every night before I somehow fall asleep, I cry and ask God or whoever is listening when will it my turn, or will that just never happen to me. Anyways enough feeling sorry for myself............:(