I dont have any children, but i do have 3 beautiful goddaughters who i love so very much. Their mom is my bf and have been friends, literally, since the day we met. I love her like my own sister. Basically shes the sister i never had....anyway, last week she told me she was late...our cycles are usually very in sync, and something in my heart told me she was pregnant...today she took her test and just as i thought, it was positive. Im sad and excited for her at the same time. My heart is soo heavy though because i cant help but wish it was me. Its at the point were it seems everyone around me is pregnant or having their baby. I work in retail and have pregnant women in and out all day....i have fb friends and family having babies or announcing pregnancies, hell even co workers are having children. what twists the knife even more is when i see women on fb talking about getting abortions or how horrible pregnancy is...and i know its not easy and some pregnancys are tough, but still...it hurts my heart. When my bf told me she wished i was pregnant with her i cried...partly because she doesnt know how badly i wish i was and because af will be here in 2 days....its at the point now that i stopped going on fb because i just cant take the preggie bump pictures and such....my bday is monday, ill be 29, and im just sitting here like damn....will it ever happen??