Husband problems!!! 😢😢

Sooo... I was sexually asulted when I was about 7 years old. Which made me have a few sexual partners for "acting out" I guess you could say. But that was when I was 16-18. Now I'm 21 and been married 2 years. I don't say "I love you" much to anyone (not mom, dad, brother, grandparents) NOONE. I love my husband so much. But it's hard to be effectionate, since everything I've been through. I don't kiss him, hug him, cuddle. I did all that in the beginning but now I dont. I don't know why?!?! I have tried 'toys' I bought lingerie but I'm scared to wear it because I'm a bigger girl and self conscious. How do I get the feeling I did back when we first were together? I haven't kissed him in forever I feel horrible I don't want him to feel unloved. We have sex but not much. Could it because of ME? how do I talk to my husband about this? It makes me embarrassed a bit. PLEASE HELPPP!!! 😢😥😢😥😢😢😢