Think I might be preg but too afraid to test

I can't handle another month of sadness. I'm to the point that i only want to take a test if I start to notice a bump lol. I know I sound completely crazy but a neg test would break my heart. I'm about 4 days late. Cramping with no spotting. Some nausea and tiredness. I feel that I am pregnant but i am trying not to over analyze things😣😔 just need some positive feedback💖💖. Keep your negative comments to yourself🙅🏻!!