I'm so jealous!!

I am such a green eyed monster, I am soooo freaking jealous of all the girls that do not want their babies, that didn't want their pregnancy, that had a quickie or one night stand and got pregnant!!! When I get my hopes up every month and track all my stuff and cry when AF shows up and cry when I stare at my bfn for 10 mins straight and you get cum on your leg and you're pregnant. Im going to sound like a child right now but I don't care, IT ISNT FAIR!!! why you?