Can't believe that I'm pregnant

I hope no one feels offended! But this is my situation... Anyway I never really wanted kids just because I'm a very worry some person plus other personal reasons. But I had my first son the first year I was married I was devastated but happy when he came! I still thank god for giving him to me. 4 years later while on the patch my daughter came. I was really depressed during and after my pregnancy but after 2 years I got over it! I was very happy and pleased I had my perfect pair. Now not even 2years of be being divorced and 9months of this new relationship I'm pregnant 29wks 5days 9years after my daughter 12 years after my son! 😫 and the worst part is I'm no longer with the father.